I’m Showing Up Every Day
I have a dream. My dream is that I no longer have to wake up to work on someone else’s dream or agenda unless I decide that I want to invest in their cause. I know that I can’t change the world for the better alone — no one can. We can spread ideas but those idea’s don’t have power alone.
I’ve been working for someone else most of my adult life. I’ve seen how others manage their business and personal lives — I want to live and think differently. I don’t want to work just to pay the bills and for my own benefit. I want my work to impact others in a meaningful way. In a way that causes people to reconsider how they approach each and every day.
In order to do that I need to start with myself and find out what causes me to tick and take action. I know that community and music are the two things I am most interested in and passionate about. Often to a fault. I can become so obsessed with something that I go all in and ignore everything and everyone around me without even realizing it.
A thought will consume my mind and paralyze me until I get that idea out on paper or talk about it.
I know this is why I have trouble falling asleep at night. My mind was racing last night thinking of all the things I had planned to do today. Writing helps me brain dump and keep my thoughts outside of my head so I can live my life to the fullest and not have my ideas stuck inside.
I’m thankful to have some accountability with writing from others in the seanwes community (Sean McCabe). We have been checking in with each other every day. For the type of person I am and how I form new habits I need that accountability. According to Gretchen Rubin’s Quiz: The Four Tendencies my dominant tendency is obliger.
Obligers respond readily to outer expectations, but struggle to meet inner expectations. In other words, they work hard not to let other people down, but they often let themselves down.
Obligers may find it difficult to form a habit, because often we undertake habits for our own benefit, and Obligers do things more easily for others than for themselves.
For Obligers, the key to forming habits is to create external accountability.
I know in order to form a new habit that I need the accountability of others and deliberately practice that new habit for 21 days or more. In 2017 that is what I am doing. Writing every day and checking in as well (which I have done since the beginning of this year). Writing is helping me improve how I communicate with others. It is also helping me figure out what direction I am taking my life.
By showing up every day this year I will achieve great things for myself and Abby. She is apart of this journey as much as I am. She is showing up every day with me by supporting me in discovering my purpose. She works so hard for our family and makes sacrifices every day for us. I would be lost without her.
We both got up together this morning around 6 AM — it was nice to get the day started with each other. I fed the cats and got ready for the day. I was able to get on the computer and start writing at 7 AM. My goal is to be out of bed at 6 AM and sitting at my desk writing at 6:30 AM. After that I would like to go on a run for 15 minutes at 7 AM.
Right now it’s 8 AM. I am going to skip my run today because I have some people I have been meaning to reach out to regarding a project I am working on and won’t put it off any longer. I keep making excuses. No more excuses. I only work until 2 PM today at my day job and plan to visit Nucleus the local CoShare I am apart of after work. I haven’t been their in what feels like over a month.
I have the skills to push people closer to their goals and my own.
I have been scared to put myself out there and go after what I want. Part of that I think was just working on other peoples dreams for so long. Now I am working on my own — will you work on yours? See you today Dayton!
